Today marks two months since we said goodbye to Roman. Here are just some scattered thoughts of mine...
Looking Back
One day, I went back and read my old blog posts about my pregnancy with Roman. I had nearly forgotten that in the very beginning we had a scare that we were going to miscarry with him. After the scare passed, I wrote my first blog post about him, and in it, I said this:
Today is the last day of 2017. As I write this there are only 19.5 hours left in this year. In a few hours, the last sunrise will take the place and hundreds of people will start to gather near our home in Time Square to watch the ball drop. In these frigid temperatures they will count down the New Year, 10,9,8... resolutions will be made and broken. Every year I write a blog post reflecting on the last 365 days.
Read MoreI have combined the last two months' blog updates, because as you are well aware by now, the end of November was the hardest day of our life. So I am just now getting around to jotting down some updates for the last two months. Also, I should note that I accidentally deleted almost all of my November photos!
Read MoreRoman,
Today you would have been one month old. One month without you here has felt like an eternity of unbearable pain and suffering. We think about you nearly every second of the day, constantly thinking about what you would be doing right now if you were here, thinking of the aspirations we had for you, but will never get to see come to fruition, mourning the loss of you. I wish I could see your eyes, I'm sure they were brown like your brother and sister.
Read MoreI never imagined that we would have to bury a child before the age of 30. I would have never imagined that we could be strong enough to make it through something like the loss of a child. Yet somehow we have. Hour by hour, day by day, we are making it. The days have now turned into weeks, as time cruelly goes on, as if nothing happened.
I know these blog posts are hard to read--they're hard to write too.
Read MoreOctober 30, 2011 is the date that Ron and I met for the first time--exactly 6 years ago today! We often recount the story of how we met, but I have never actually written it down. So today I thought I would write out our story :)
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