After about a week of worrying about Jackson, he decided to make his grand appearance into this world. Born on September 27th, 2018 weighing in at a whopping 5 lbs. 15 oz.
Read MoreThis evening, Ron and I (okay, Ron, while I watched) raised the crib mattress up in preparation for Jackson's arrival. It might seem like a small act, but each little "to-do" that we knock off our list, is actually so weighty and feels like a step of faith. Because raising that crib up means that I expect to put a baby in it. What should be so certain in our minds, just isn't. So I feel so vulnerable when we act in ways of certainty. I want to believe that it's true, but in the same breath, my instinct is to "protect" myself, to guard my heart just a little. As if not preparing a crib could somehow lessen the blow of losing a child. I know this to be false, yet my mind still operates in this fashion, even if subconsciously. So we make conscious efforts to be "normal" during this pregnancy.
Read MoreSo I never did get around to writing my July family update, so I'll do one post for July and August here now!
We spent the first part of July in Oklahoma. This was super relaxing, and it is always great to spend time with family! We got to set off fireworks, play in a pool, go to a jump space, do an escape room, go to a water park, and pedicures! I'd say it was a pretty great trip!
Once we were back from Oklahoma, we settled into our summer routine.
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Today I thought I'd blog about what it's like to be pregnant after a stillbirth. Of course, we are overjoyed and thrilled to be expecting again. Those are the parts that people see on social media, so you already know the joy that we are experiencing this pregnancy. But it doesn't mean that it is an easy journey to go through pregnancy again, so I thought I'd shed some light on our struggles these past 6 months.
Read MoreJune was a fun and busy month for us! It's been an unusually hot June for New York, so we've mostly spent the month trying to stay cool! We went out to Long Island one day to visit family and take a quick trip to Robert Moses Beach. Gigi, Bop, Uncle Jason, & Aunt Lexxie came to visit us, and Aly had her dance recital and moving up ceremony! School ended on the 26th, and then we flew to OK the next day, where we still are! Time is flying by, and I'm grateful to spend it with lots of friends and family!
Read MoreMay was a fun-filled month! Most notably, we found out we are having another boy, and we decided on his name--Jackson Graham Arevalo. Aly got to go rock climbing, we visited grandparents in Long Island, we spent a day upstate, had a gender reveal party, everyone got a stomach bug, and we spent the weekend in Jersey for our 7th Annual Memorial Day Weekend. This has been such a fun tradition, getting to spend every year with some of our closest friends!
Read MoreI am now 18 weeks pregnant with our 4th child and 3rd son, so I thought I'd write a little about him :)
Let me back up to a couple of weeks ago. I went to my 16 week appointment at the hospital with high hopes that they would be able to find out the gender at this appointment. Ron was unable to make it to that appointment, so it was just me and Fynn.
Read MoreWriting is certainly a cathartic release, personally, I have kept a journal, and every now and then I'll write here and share my thoughts publicly.
Read MoreSweet Roman,
Today you would have been 6 months old. Instead, you have spent the past 6 months in Heaven. Today, Aly asked if you were growing in Heaven. I too wonder and dream about what you are doing and what it's like for you. All I know is that is better than anything we can ever dream of.
Read MoreI have clearly been slacking, so I am finally sitting down and writing a blog update for both March & April!
We started out March with a couple last days in Australia and then we slowly made our way back home. Once we got home, we were welcomed right back into a New York City winter, complete with a snow day to enjoy.
Read MoreToday Roman would have been 4 months old. I don't have any profound thoughts to share, but I just feel like writing today as I am so deep in my sadness. Most of the time, I like to blog when I have my thoughts somewhat together, but today I'll let you get a glimpse of a heavily grieving Mama...
Read MoreThat's right, Baby #4 will be joining our family in October!
We found out this joyous news while we were on Hamilton Island in Australia. What a sweet time of rest, topped off with such wonderful news!
Today we got to see the baby for the first time and hear the heartbeat. Oh the heartbeat. It has never sounded more beautiful to my ears. This baby already has all of our love.
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